I have reached the point where I am grateful that I still wake up every morning shaking. I consider it a gift.
For months and months, I prayed for the pain to stop. Now I am praying that it will continue. I need it. I need it as a reminder to tell me what I need to do.
What we need to do is not something that we can program an app to tell us. We can't set an alarm to tell us to protect the rights of the oppressed.
We can tie a string around our finger. We can turn to Mecca five times a day. We can wear a safety pin. I wear a safety pin, but I also wear my fear, which is a safety pin that pierces my skin at all times.
